The illusion of having all of life’s demands neatly ordered must die.
There’s a tension to life.
Often, I feel bad for not spending enough time with my wife and daughter while I chase my dreams; but while I spend time with my wife and daughter I feel bad for not bettering myself so that we all can experience a higher quality of life.
It’s a tension, pulling me in two different directions.
I want to have fun but I also need to work.
I love spending time writing but it takes away time I could use to read.
Do you see my dilemma?
How can I find peace and comfort in this tension?
What if I’m not strong enough to withstand the constant struggle?
Will I always have to bare the weight of this tension?
I’m not sure I’m man enough to handle it; but its worth a fight.
At times the one pulling the hardest in the moment is not the most important.